D Day is Near

Finally.  The light at the end of the tunnel.  May 22 is “D Day” which means “Divorce Day” for me.  That’s the day we meet with the judge to get the divorce finalized.  I guess it’s fairly casual, since we don’t have money-grubbing lawyers involved.  Just us and the judge.

I had mixed emotions when I received the letter in the mail.  The first reaction was “Finally!”.  The second reaction was sadness.  I feel bad for my daughter who won’t grow up with Mom and Dad under the same roof.  At the same time, I don’t want her with a Mom and Dad who are fighting constantly under the same roof.

I guess in some ways I feel like it’s a failure while at other times I feel like it’s a victory.  I’m sad we couldn’t get along and make it work, but I’m very happy I have a second chance at happiness.  An opportunity to begin a new chapter in my life and look forward to what that will bring.

I’m sure when the judge rubber-stamps the papers it will be tough for me to fight back the tears.  However, I will look forward to meeting my fellow runners that evening for running camp and my new man for a “D Day” celebration.  Life is good.