Confused Woman!

I’ve thought about this a lot lately.  I don’t know if it’s due to the seasonal changes or the fact I’m watching too many reality shows.  It’s been really bad lately.  I’m turning a nice, dark green shade of envy.

It happens several times a day.  I’m driving to work and I see someone next to me in a brand new luxury SUV that cost more than my first house.  Then there’s me next to them in my dusty, eight year-old Grand Am.  Wow, must be nice to be able to have that fancy car.

Then I arrive at work.  I walk past cube after cube full of family photos and all their little cutesy decorations.  Gee, I think, must be nice to have a husband around and be able to decorate beyond a dead plant and an old coffee mug.

At lunch, co-workers discuss weekend plans and upcoming vacations to exotic locales.  Hmmm…well, this weekend I’ll shop at Aldi for groceries and watch re-runs on cable.  Vacations?  Hah!  What’s that?

By the time I leave work, I’m a big ball of green envy goo.  I feel like the Grinch, all cranky at the world.  However, when I arrive at school to pick up my daughter, all is erased for the moment.

To see that smiling face running towards me for a big hug reminds me that I may not have all the fancy things or a husband to go through life with, but I have my beautiful daughter.  That’s worth more than all of that other stuff combined.  But, you know, I wouldn’t exactly turn away the nice stuff either.  😎