I started a new job and as you know, there’s usually a pretty steep learning curve. This time around, not only do I have to learn a ton of new terminology, but I also have to take classes and pass tests afterwards. If I don’t pass, I don’t get access to the financial system to do my job. No pressure at all!
I had taken these classes and worked with the system before, but it was a few years ago so my brain is older and the system has been updated. The combination is ugly, to say the least. I was overconfident in class, convinced I didn’t need to pay attention or study.
The first assessment I passed just fine. The second assessment, however, was brutal. It reminded me of those college finals where you think you had it aced, and then you realized you were screwed.
I failed the first try and was so frustrated. I was in class! I was in the front row! I actually stayed awake! How did I fail? It probably didn’t help that I was rushing through it on a Friday afternoon so I could escape the office and head to happy hour.
Monday morning I was filled with anxiety. What if I don’t pass again? We get three tries (which is very generous I know) and if we still can’t get a passing grade we have to wait six months to try again. This cannot happen!
I wanted a perfect score, but honestly was happy that I passed on the second try. It’s funny how after all of these years out of school I still have the overachiever “have to be the best” mentality. It just never goes away.
Confused Woman! 
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